What a day!
Its been a week since i posted last. You know why? I think i had a fall out (not sure though). I cudnt just understand why i wasnt getting any replies from her. I then thought for a while and i got a clue to it. i had been sort of possesive. Always around her and not giving her much space to breath which i feel has started making me look ......what's the word to use here(you could help me complete that). whew! The zeal to keep typing this has gone down a bit. But I'll continue.
She's been home for the weekend and I decided not to call(Give her some space, my head says). It hasnt been easy. had to leave my phone back at the room (on silent) so i wouldnt get any ideas of callin or trying to reach out to her. I've got work to do but the feeling was more like..I'm thinking of her every second and could create time to visit or do something for her.. Right now, I'm busy working. Work , work, work...so i can get out of the normal world. yeah, she's coming back today and i'm still not gonna see her. Some time off should do(and I get to work faster).
thoughts in my head, do you step back or continue...........I'd go on, but calculatively.
Today is Sunday, i aint worrying anymore(found a way to live with it), Just by saying some "all izz well" to myself, My thoughts seem to slow down and the worries go away. I sure do hope i get to type some good things later this week. and yeah, Church was fun today.
Its been a week since i posted last. You know why? I think i had a fall out (not sure though). I cudnt just understand why i wasnt getting any replies from her. I then thought for a while and i got a clue to it. i had been sort of possesive. Always around her and not giving her much space to breath which i feel has started making me look ......what's the word to use here(you could help me complete that). whew! The zeal to keep typing this has gone down a bit. But I'll continue.
She's been home for the weekend and I decided not to call(Give her some space, my head says). It hasnt been easy. had to leave my phone back at the room (on silent) so i wouldnt get any ideas of callin or trying to reach out to her. I've got work to do but the feeling was more like..I'm thinking of her every second and could create time to visit or do something for her.. Right now, I'm busy working. Work , work, work...so i can get out of the normal world. yeah, she's coming back today and i'm still not gonna see her. Some time off should do(and I get to work faster).
thoughts in my head, do you step back or continue...........I'd go on, but calculatively.
Today is Sunday, i aint worrying anymore(found a way to live with it), Just by saying some "all izz well" to myself, My thoughts seem to slow down and the worries go away. I sure do hope i get to type some good things later this week. and yeah, Church was fun today.
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