Hi People.
This is my diary. And I like to tell the truth in it. No matter what it could make me look like in the face of people. This really happened to me. And its a flop tale of one of my escapades. I walk in the spirit. At times. I also do walk in the flesh. I have stories about this.
Here I was yesterday in my room after having typed on my MSI mini laptop, a poem spoken out by a lady on a video from www.theresurgence.com made for singles just in case people didnt get to have fast links that they could use to view it.
After sending this to an online group on facebook for singles, I dialled my friend's line. I didnt mention that I had started having feelings for her some months ago. I had sent a copy of the poem to her and the link on her mail. I didnt get through the first time i called. I then called again about twenty of thirty minutes later. Did the usual greetings and then asked if she was busy. probably reading i thought. Then asked for her whereabouts probably she was in the school campus or home....she didnt want to say this. "I go on dates, you know, don't want to tell you were i am" she said (Don't think I got the exact words but its something like it). i then proceeded to tell her i had sent her a mail and about the content. The call then ended.
i got disturbed that she was with someone (She wasn't after all, i misinterpreted). Though at other times, i wouldn't have been. whenever anything disturbs me, I find peace and make a decision. This time i didn't. I worked with my emotions and in less than 2 hours, 30 minutes, i had taken some steps that I look back and wonder "what was I thinking?". I talked with a friend (spiritual) before this, and he added more fuel to it telling me I was taking too long to ask (Deepen the friendship man!).
I didn't mention I had listened to audios on relationships, read books on life and other things in the past and I tell you if there was anyone that should have known how to remain calm, "it was me." I had kept the issue on relationships in prayer for some weeks and even maybe a year or two. I didnt make up my mind as the issue wasn't one you just make light heartedly. I had wanted to travel to tell her about two weeks ago (we are 3 or 4 hours apart if you drove a good car). I didnt want to say it on phone (though it better saying it physically, there are no hard rules about not saying it on phone). 'I like you', I told her. after asking her if she had left the place (the place I thought she was with someone). (Now I want to cover my face) . Then she asked, why are you telling me this now? I then blabbed and blabbed on an on, telling stuff I wasn't prepared for. Guys, be prepared whenever you want to tell a girl this.
And you know, be prepared for anything you want to do in life. Did I mention i was having some strange breaths while talking at a time too (Kunle o!)
In all, she asked some questions, things I had known earlier and planned to do. maybe not the planning part but i knew. Cos i had read about them. She even gave me the book.
You know, even with my prayers and my usual "I'll praise you in the good and the bad" song. I still did this. I hadn't heard anything from God about anyone. Did I even know how to hear from God?. I hadn't developed this (I actually do have my way of hearing from God). I usually prayed about any issue to God, and then walked without waiting to listen..If I had peace, that was enough....Did I apply this?
Never make a decision when you are all taken up by emotions. even if its the right thing to do, You wont be thinking clearly at that time.
I intend calling her back today, I'll tell it all, make some decisions and as usual I'll write back.
Till the next post.
Hmm.....didnt write back till today. I look back and its actually one of the best decisions I have made so far. What actually makes a decision good. Its not the initial decision alone. It has a lot to do with the process. The process makes it tick.
This is my diary. And I like to tell the truth in it. No matter what it could make me look like in the face of people. This really happened to me. And its a flop tale of one of my escapades. I walk in the spirit. At times. I also do walk in the flesh. I have stories about this.
Here I was yesterday in my room after having typed on my MSI mini laptop, a poem spoken out by a lady on a video from www.theresurgence.com made for singles just in case people didnt get to have fast links that they could use to view it.
After sending this to an online group on facebook for singles, I dialled my friend's line. I didnt mention that I had started having feelings for her some months ago. I had sent a copy of the poem to her and the link on her mail. I didnt get through the first time i called. I then called again about twenty of thirty minutes later. Did the usual greetings and then asked if she was busy. probably reading i thought. Then asked for her whereabouts probably she was in the school campus or home....she didnt want to say this. "I go on dates, you know, don't want to tell you were i am" she said (Don't think I got the exact words but its something like it). i then proceeded to tell her i had sent her a mail and about the content. The call then ended.
i got disturbed that she was with someone (She wasn't after all, i misinterpreted). Though at other times, i wouldn't have been. whenever anything disturbs me, I find peace and make a decision. This time i didn't. I worked with my emotions and in less than 2 hours, 30 minutes, i had taken some steps that I look back and wonder "what was I thinking?". I talked with a friend (spiritual) before this, and he added more fuel to it telling me I was taking too long to ask (Deepen the friendship man!).
I didn't mention I had listened to audios on relationships, read books on life and other things in the past and I tell you if there was anyone that should have known how to remain calm, "it was me." I had kept the issue on relationships in prayer for some weeks and even maybe a year or two. I didnt make up my mind as the issue wasn't one you just make light heartedly. I had wanted to travel to tell her about two weeks ago (we are 3 or 4 hours apart if you drove a good car). I didnt want to say it on phone (though it better saying it physically, there are no hard rules about not saying it on phone). 'I like you', I told her. after asking her if she had left the place (the place I thought she was with someone). (Now I want to cover my face) . Then she asked, why are you telling me this now? I then blabbed and blabbed on an on, telling stuff I wasn't prepared for. Guys, be prepared whenever you want to tell a girl this.
And you know, be prepared for anything you want to do in life. Did I mention i was having some strange breaths while talking at a time too (Kunle o!)
In all, she asked some questions, things I had known earlier and planned to do. maybe not the planning part but i knew. Cos i had read about them. She even gave me the book.
You know, even with my prayers and my usual "I'll praise you in the good and the bad" song. I still did this. I hadn't heard anything from God about anyone. Did I even know how to hear from God?. I hadn't developed this (I actually do have my way of hearing from God). I usually prayed about any issue to God, and then walked without waiting to listen..If I had peace, that was enough....Did I apply this?
Never make a decision when you are all taken up by emotions. even if its the right thing to do, You wont be thinking clearly at that time.
I intend calling her back today, I'll tell it all, make some decisions and as usual I'll write back.
Till the next post.
Hmm.....didnt write back till today. I look back and its actually one of the best decisions I have made so far. What actually makes a decision good. Its not the initial decision alone. It has a lot to do with the process. The process makes it tick.
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