What a day!

I traded in it. I still keep the stocks. I didn't sell. Mr Tim said don't sell. I didn't. I haven't checked the stocks in over 2 months. It doesn't seem to interest me anymore. Its a time I need to buy but other things are taking my time. I'll check it out by Friday.

So I get to travel often now. I've been travelling between Lagos and Delta twice every month for a while now. Its fun. Its tiring. Its beautiful. Its what you think it is. I travel from Sapele to Ajah mostly but once I travelled from Asaba to Lagos. I use the GIGM service most times. I try to book a day before to get a 10% discount. I drove once from Lagos to Delta. My first time. On the 3rd of January this year. I drove a colleague's car. A Honda Accord. The engine was good. Enjoyed the drive. So the travels. I get to see Kitty during the weekends. I also attend a class with her. That's the main catch. A class with Dr. Omowo. He's a great teacher. I'll still be travelling for some time. But then, I'm re-thinking my stay here. I know Delta state is a good place. I've been here for 3 months and its been a wonderful experience. maybe its just me. maybe its just me.

Sitting here by 12:16 am. Thinking of what my life has become. How things are, How tired I have become of the power sector (Maybe just BEDC or the fact that my heart yearns to be somewhere far away).  And then discipline. How disciplined am I? I'm not happy about that. I think of my life. My friend clocked 30 yesterday. I will in 2 months from now.  Am I serious at all? What's it with me? Spiritually, I don't feel I've been doing great. You don't want to know Intellectually, I haven't been doing fine either. I hardly read these days.  Financially, I feel I've been doing badly. Haven't made any cash on my own apart from the BEDC cash since 2015.And I don't like it. I feel I should be doing better. Aaaaah! Am I going crazy about all these? I thought of leaving BEDC during the weekend. I just don't feel myself anymore in what I do.  I somehow have an idea that If I had to work for someone, I had to do a task that wo...

I walked by the street the street leading to the house from the highway, it leads home The poverty I see. The people I see The road I see, the businesses I see The children I see, The old people I see The darkness I see A picture I'll love to take The attention I do not need I try to cry, I cannot As I see more, I cannot but wonder Just a bridge separates the darkness from light I'm lucky to stay where the light is But I pass through the darkness to get to the light I started noticing yesterday, The people and all The faces of the children as they play Their smiles show no worries despited their state no thouguht of what their environment poses I smile. Then the sadness return as I see the elderly.